At the lobby a middle age women  with grey pants and loose shirts. She was daydreaming when the nurse come in , "your turn MS"
When she come in the psychiatrist  smiles
" rose, is that you?it's gone isn't it "
" thanks GOD someone still call my name …yea it's gone are you happy..satisfied your treatment work out but"
"so why are you here???"
"iwant it back ..who tell you that don't want to see him .. they force me to come to you iam not crazy ..i just want something to occupy my mind when  it used to come at night I  felt happy ..iwas waiting for it ..but now it disappeared  thanks to you"
"it was your fancy things like this never exist yo."
"stop this crab I don't want to hear your theory about it ..i lost it ilost it ican't bring it any more every time I try to  see it or to hear its voice calling me the only thing  ihear is our voice telling me about the reality and illusion ..no power in the world can bring it back right now.. damn you ..damn reality ..damn it iwant my ghost back "
she left the clinic …. The doc"who is next "

-He: Hi
-She: Hi
-He: Are you ok?
-She: Are you ok?
-He: you wanna say something?!
-She: No, I think you have something to say!!
-He: No, I thought you wanted to tell me something .
-She: No, there's nothing in my mind.

Then silence prevailed…

-She: what are we gonna do?
-He: Do you have something in mind?
-She: No, Do you?
-He: No, I don't.

Silence, coldness and estrangement dominated the atmosphere…

-He: I love you.
-She: I love you too.

112010                              04:00 pm

Bella Daniella

your nice words ment the world to me, I'm looking forword to read your story.

Like the other days the sun rays sneak through the blinds tingling his eyes ' brush inviting him to wake up he got up staggered towards  the sink heavily washed the worries of the long exhausting night grip his shirts which long enough had covered the stingy corpse of him .his eyes fall on coin which he never touched for so many years he put it in his pocket then went out. he walked till the smell of coffee from neighboring roaster invite him to take a cup in'lUXURYCAFE" he went in,ordered his usual cup and sat near the window he couldn't stop the flood of thought on  his  mind" why should I keep on like this. There should be time to change...ishould get up on my feet "he shakes his head to thrust aside these thoughts as it where pecks of dust cling to the clean glass of his brain
"Excuse me May isit?" an old man in sixties tapped on his shoulder
He smirked out of  politeness although he worked so many years under the grounds he never forgot the pretences that rules  the world up there he looked at him with inquiring eyes then said "no problem"
"It is hot day? "
"it is strange thing that the weather is always the first plate served in banquet of conversation…yea it is hot ..Ilike the heat cause we all feel it...unlike the coldness which smacked down before the fortress of thick furred coats"
"I am not leach but iam always being drawn to the whirlpools of thoughts icant resist their magnetized power and in you ican feel thousands"
"Then you spent your life doing nothing but collecting your shipwreck thinking is dangerous  ...thoughts are bonds of daring will"
"Then out of what you make your decisions?!!"
He chuckled then took a sip of coffee "decisions .for years I used to flip the coin. Till one day I realized that there is only one side for the coin "
astonished "one side how that?!!"
He turned his head looked at the girl on the next table as he was fumbling for something to distract his mind" you can call it crazy but its my philosophy .first ididnot choose to come to life ididnt choose my name my mom my work my religion even my personal believes iguess I absorbed from the other...so all iam doing is scripting lines on oneside of the coin and when time come the fate will flip the coin and I'll draw lines on the other side"
"Life always has propelling power"
The young guy looked at his watch "sorry I've to go …nice chance"
He put the money on tables then dashed out the café "ididn't asks him about his name? What s his name he seems to me very respectable man iguess his name will be Thomas or Richard..." he took the coin throw it up but he couldn't caught it so it fell down in sewage. He laughed for while then he keeps on walking